I found myself having trouble relaxing
found that all my body was really filled with
(Exept for the soon to be born baby)
was worry and fear
What if we have to wake our son up in the middle of the night?
he has never slept a night without me
and it's hard to let go
And trust that he will be ok
what if I scare the hell out of him with my pain
and what if he feels totally abandoned?
Right now, our son wants us to be wherever he is
in the same room
right beside him
and as a parent
you sometimes doubt everything you do
is it my fault that he is so clingy right now?
am I doing something wrong?
and most of all
How will I handle this big wave of change
coming our way?
But then I heard this tiny little voice
from somewhere deep within saying:
Youre doing the best you can
You don't know all the answers
And I found myself crying
thinking:
I am. I'm doing all I can for my little boy
And when it comes down to it
that's really all we can do as human beings
and parents
Isn't it?
Cause how can we know moore than we know?
And do moore than we can?
Thank you. Love/ mom
