Being a mother

All the things you go through as a mother

might makes you ask you the question:

is it worth it?

all the

worries

sadness 

anger

and maybe most of all

the odd feeling of being

in total power 

in the exactly same time as

youre feeling

totally 

powerless 

is it worth it?

you give up your life

you could go travelling 

go wherever you wanted without asking 

without considering 

anybody else 

if you didn't have a child

you tie yourself 

to this child

for at least 18 years 

is it worth it? 

1 june ive been a mother for three months 

and today is the first day that i can honestly say 

at least for myself

that one day I can imagine to have another baby 

beaucuse being a mother

going through a pregnancy 

giving birth to a child

it's painful 

traumatising 

and that's just so far

I will probably scream a thousand times

complain a thusand times

but I can't think of another thing in life 

so far 

that can be so traumatizing 

and still be 

so much worth it